22 Apr 2003
Its 4:30 am and I'm still searching. Searching for someone, anyone still awake. Someone to make a connection with.
I've lived most of my life in the shadows. Watching people live life, but never participating. I hated crowds, hated conversations, hated dealing with the pettiness and cruelty that come with any relationship.
But now, my days are number. The only thing I want now is at least one real relationship. At least one real connection with someone special, so that at least one person will know my story.
The saddest funerals are attended by only the gravedigger.