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  • At Peace
    aserene
    28 Sep 2003

    At Peace

    I feel so light
    Like I'm floating
    As I wander to
    Our Morning spot

    I get there
    And see my friends,
    Depressed, each
    With tear stained cheeks

    I don't know why
    They're so sad
    All I feel is this warmth inside,
    This peace I have never felt before

    I go to give one
    A hug but
    She doesn't notice me
    And is comforted by another

    Getting rather annoyed
    I got to my classes
    And not one of my teachers
    Calls on me

    After school, I feel
    Like I am flying
    As I go to another building
    Where I travel to one room

    And there she sits
    In all her solemn serenity
    Not even acknowledging me
    A purple notebook sitting in front of her and wings behind her

    I leave and go home
    To an empty house
    I open the door to my room
    But appear in another hall.

    I know this hall
    I walk down three steps
    Into big sister's den
    She's there, crying.

    My other big sister
    And big brother
    Are there
    Crying

    I walk over to them
    Yet they do not notice me
    Brushing a tear aside
    I leave and end up in the gym

    It's a school dance
    And I notice my friends
    I walk towards them
    And than I see him

    In white, like he was
    Walking towards me, smiling
    I know I'm hallucinating
    But it feels so real as we dance.

    He kisses my forehead
    Just like he had
    Just like any cousin would
    And I feel something flow through me

    I realize I know
    How it will be
    I've seen the future
    And somehow I know its true.

    With the new sun
    I watch everyone I know
    And as I stand outside one room
    I see them all talking

    This time I notice the wings
    I could never have seen before
    I smile and say goodbye
    Knowing somehow I'll see them again.

    I walk around and think
    About the car crashes, the gunshots,
    The fires, the drugs, the poisons,
    The murders
    Than I'm walking on shores I recognize
    I see my older siblings
    Toss something into the water
    Followed by a wreath of roses

    When next I see anyone
    They're standing over a plaque
    Flowers in hand, tears in eyes
    I look daringly down

    But before I can read it
    I see him again
    He beckons me to follow
    As so I do

    He offers me a hand
    And next I'm sitting on a cloud
    He hands me a mirror
    And I see the plaque

    I read it,
    The dates ring clear in my head
    May 29th 1988- September 30th 2003
    That was three days ago, the plaque is mine

    I realize for the first time
    What this warmth is
    The calmness and peace
    In knowing everyone is alright

    The world I live in know
    Is timeless and beautiful
    You age, but its very hard to
    Keep track of years

    I'm asked to come to the Gates
    Where the new ones arrive
    There are many
    But I recognize only one

    Someone says she was
    A top angel, and somehow I'd known
    Long before today
    She smiles and I smile back

    In this timeless world
    Nothing has changed
    And as I let my wings move me
    I feel completely at peace.