Control and Illusion
25 Jul 2007
A little over a year ago, had a major change in my life and made the resolution to take control of my life. Now I laugh at that concept, because there's so much out of my control. Some people seem to have it, seem to make that decision and make things happen. But I think it's an illusion. Somehow, somewhere somethings out of their control, no matter what they do. Not that it matters in the end, because it's the same for all of us. The only thing that matters is maintaining the illusion when it counts, when the sh*t hits the fan, when you're at work, when the walls are falling all around you, or when you're hurt. But inside it's still a mess. And the most important thing is how you deal with it, how you react on the outside, because I'm not sure you can control the inside. It's still an illusion however, but who's going to see through it.