Memento Mori (4x15)
written by Chris Carter and Vince Gilligan
SCULLY: (voiceover): I feel time like a heartbeat, the seconds pumping in my breast like a reckoning. The numinous mysteries that once seemed so distant and unreal, threatening clarity in the presence of a truth entertained not in youth, but only in its passage. I feel these words as if their meaning were weight being lifted from me, knowing that you will read them and share my burden, as I have come to trust no other. That you should know my heart, look into it, finding there the memory and experience that belong to you, that are you, is a comfort to me now as I feel the tethers loose and the prospects darken for the continuance of a journey that began not so long ago, and which began again with a faith shakened and strengthened by your convictions. If not for which I might never have been so strong now as I cross to face you and look at you incomplete, hoping that you will forgive me for not making the rest of the journey with you.
SCULLY: (voiceover): In med school I learned that cancer arrives in the body unannounced, a dark stranger who takes up residence, turning its new home against itself. This is the evil of cancer, that it starts as an invader, but soon becomes one with the invaded, forcing you to destroy it but only at the risk of destroying yourself. It is science's demon possession, my treatment, science's attempt at exorcism. Mulder, I hope that in these terms you might know it and know me and accept this stranger some may recognize but cannot ever completely cast out. And if the darkness should have swallowed me as you read this, you must never think there was the possibility of some secret intervention, something you might have done. And though we've traveled far together, this last distance must necessarily be traveled alone.
SKINNER: So you want to set a meeting, with whom?
MULDER: Cigarette man. I have no doubt in my mind he's behind this.
SKINNER: You've come to me before like this, Mulder.
MULDER: Yeah, well this is different, this is different. I'm willing to deal now.
SKINNER: Find another way.
MULDER: No, no. I need that meeting.
SKINNER: You deal with this man, you offer him anything and he will own you forever.
MULDER: I was calling to thank you for your advice about your chainsmoking friend. I think you were right. We have to know what he knows. We just have to find another way.
SKINNER: There's always another way.
CIGARETTE-SMOKING MAN: Yes, I believe there is ... if you're willing to pay the price.